"What do you want to be?" "Happy," she says with a smile. - Colleen Hoover

Tuesday, July 10, 2018

Hey All

   Hey guys, you may have noticed that I've been a terrible book blogger lately. I made a goal at the beginning of the year to post two times a week - Tuesdays and Thursdays. I was doing a great job of sticking to that goal but then life happened.
   I have been debating on whether or not I was going to talk about any of this because it's a private matter but you guys are my friends, and I feel like you deserve an explanation on where I've been.
   In February my grandma passed away.
   She was my very best friend and without a doubt my hero.
   She was 85 years old so it's not like it came out of nowhere but guys, it came out of nowhere. She's been in the hospital but she had just come home. Luckily my family and I got to spend the day with her at her house to celebrate her birthday and we all had so much fun. Unfortunately the next day she was back in the hospital and the outcome was something none of us wanted.
   I've been having a really hard time dealing with it all. When it first happened I felt like I would never stop crying. I felt sick, felt like I couldn't breathe, felt like I'd never be me again. The days and months have gone by and while things are becoming more tolerable it still hurts. I miss her so much and I hate not being able to go to her to talk about anything and everything.
   Finding the time to read has been non-existent. In May I read a book that my local library recommended to me and I loved it. I had so much fun reading it I thought maybe it would get me back into it. But it didn't. I just don't have the drive and that in itself is driving me crazy.
   I feel like I have failed the people who are kind enough to check my blog and take the time to comment and that makes me feel even worse.
  You all will never know how much it means to me to have your support and to read your kind words. I love talking books and pop culture with you. I love sharing your DUFF stories and finding out more about you. I just want you all to know that I am trying my best to get back in the game.
  Thank you for your patience with me.


  1. Death just knocks you off your horse. I know how you feel with my bro dying this past January. Main thing that got me going was imagining him telling me to get on with it and stop moping over him. Didn't stop me from crying, but it helped me get back into the swing of things.

    1. I'm so sorry. I know that doesn't really ever help but I feel like no words really do.
      Thank you for your comment. <3

  2. I'm so sorry for your loss. Grief is all encompassing and it doesn't go away, our lives just grow around it. Breathe and take care of yourself.

    1. I've finally gotten back on here so I'm sorry for just now seeing your comment. Thank you so much for taking the time to say this <3